Monday, June 10, 2013

Yay Irony

Yesterday, I realized something about myself.  I have developed free floating anxiety because I feel like I should have schoolwork to do.  I start to panic and just do a whole ton all at once to make up for it.  Yesterday I cleaned every surface in my room, did 5 loads of laundry, organized my bookshelf and cleaned and perfectly made my bed.   Why? Cause I couldn't not do anything.

I feel sorta betrayed.  I finally get the free time I wanted and I can't enjoy it cause I was overdoing it so much.  I feel agitated and panicky now that I have nothing to do, even though I worked the majority of the day.   I think I managed to develop some sort of mental disorder.  I'd ask to see a therapist about it, but I have a pathological fear of them.  Which, makes things difficult.

On the good side, my boyfriend said the idea of me panicking cause I don't have anything to do was sorta adorable.  That helped calm me down something and I found myself smiling a lot.

Monday, June 3, 2013


Tomorrow I finally do my big presentation in my MSA Research class.  This has attracted a lot of attention, mostly due to the oddity of a nerdy kid with a t-shirt and vest running around with a wired up typewriter in the school hallways.  Anyways... I am sorta nervous and excited about it all at once! I can't believe it is actually happening!  I am going to get all dressed up in a suit coat, with a crimson red dress shirt and grey tie w/ matching color vest! I am going to show the class what it means to do a proper presentation.  That is if I don't start stuttering....

Oh well! I appologize btw, for still not having posted the stuff on the typewriter. It is coming, I promise! It's just that the presentation took precedence.   Last week of school for me! I just sorta wanted to share my nervous excitement with you guys! (meaning the two or three of you who follow this blog :/)